♥ My Complicated Life

♥ Wednesday, July 30, 2008

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Future...
Do you plan for your future ? Many of us have one thinking that is goes one day by one and didn't plan what will happen in 5 or even 10 years times... Agree? In 10 yrs time I'll be 27 yrs old not too old and not too young...I love telling you guys story , dreams and my planning... I have plan that I'll not get marry , have my own house and car. Maybe due to my family am scared of the words 'Marriage. Last year or earlier i always thought this words represent happiness but am wrong.Now i see how scary is it i didn't even dare to give it a try... Done quite a lot of thinking when am sad or lonely...
Just think in a relationship , when you really doesn't have the feeling for the other partner you can just walk away without any burden but, when you are married or with a child you have to consider about your child happiness... Say is easier than done. last time i always told my friend if am married, and divorce i will bring my child along with me but think again do i have the money to raise and educate him/her...So no child and marriage equal to no burden... So single is always better...
What make me think like that ? I have been staying with my guy for a year and i have see through all things i don't even think that he will marry me or what... We have different opinion and always argue on small issue.. What if we really married and quarrel so often but with i have his child and we still like that i can't walk off i leave my child in his care i saw his children how he treat him i don't really think he have give his part as a dad...
In my opinion children when they reached their teenage they will also have a thinking this old naggy women is also not my real mum why she keep bothering me... But, if she really thinks hard when she is young who the one who hold her hand tight out, who the one who take her to make a first trip on the train or bus or even movie. Who the one who treat her like her own daughter and hug her when she is going to bed, who is the one who sit beside her and read bedtime story till she sleep ? Of all this above i don't hope that she will repay or what but, one day if you have a chance to read this stop hating me for bother you so much as really care for you although we r not fated to be real mother n daughter but i treat you like my own child my beloved daughter...

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♥ Friday, July 25, 2008

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FRIENDS....
It been a long time since i really have a good time catching up with all my friends. I do really miss all of you ! But, one thing i guess have proven me wrong again my tag board i was wondering did they really come and read it or not as my tag board was so empty... -.-

Or it have proven me that my friend is just friend and not really the one who go and care about me i have dreams but, my dreams i wish my friends could take part in it i wish i could share it with them and be proud that one day i could actually achieve it so are you really my friend ? Maybe i shouldn't say all this as i know around me i really doesn't have a lot of true friend who stand by me...When am sad i wish there is someone who lend me a listening ear by listening to me and give me advise. When am happy share the moments the joy with me like i does to you.

There nothing more happier than to share my joys and tears with my friends at least in our heart we will always remember there out there you have a friend who make you rmb her/he for what he/she do for you. Tell jokes to you when you r sad to make you smile to accompany you when you are in need. Friendship is priceless no matter how rich you are you can't get a real friendship.My friends think what am say is it true ? Sorry maybe i just can't feel your support for me...
The last dance i always look to have been more far away.....

all above belong to joyce's dreams

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♥ Wednesday, July 23, 2008

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WORKS...
Work stay from today... is not what i wish to do but, for the sake of money i got no choice . Actually what i wants was to open a blogshop and sell my crafts . But, i didn't receive support from the previous blogshop so am having phobia. Oh God ! Maybe all of my judges and audience can give me some comment on that and the price range ? Work , what you are working as doesn't matter at least must be happy. To achieve what you want will be what you dream.

But, this work i won't stay long as i say am bored to do retail again....... Argghhhhhhh!!!! I wants to be my own boss i doesn't want any one to be above me or am under anyone. I have big dreams , i have big ambition ! I need to save my capital in order to open my business hope everyone give me your support k ?

As those who know me real well will exactly know how my craft is from a beginner to a semi-pro . =.= My craft skill , nobody taught me i find all the skill myself. Do you believe ? I believe GOD give me this talent to make people around me to be happy and of course to make me earn something for my big big dreams !

Dreams everyone should have a chance to acheive don't miss the chance or the other chance will be long enough for you to wait. Everyone am going to sleep working full shift tomorrow. GOOD NIGHT....1,2,3.....

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♥ Tuesday, July 22, 2008

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DREAMS...

Dreams it seems so far yet so near. I once dream to have never ending spending money but, if am rich then ? Am a ordinary girl just like you girls out there... But, maybe something diffrent that is MY FAMILY ! When i was young all i knew was i have a broken family a complicated one indeed. Now am old enough to think what is good for them. even if i have a complete family but, both of my parents are unhappy so what the use ? Now, they find their happiness i should encourage them to move on all i want now is they are happy thats all don,t you agree ?

Dreams always seem so perfect but in real they are diificult to be true. It always been a target to me. But, i know am not yet qualify o acheive them. Am young i mean am still a teenager right? although, am a working young adult. Sometimes i need time to be back to a navie girl as i used to be or else i will let stress struggle me to death.Life seem to be hard nowadays, no longer those everyday wake up go to school, after school can go back home and sleep. How i wish am still in secondary school now.Feel so bless for all those who are still studying !

Dreams, day-dreaming maybe ? i wish to own a house my own little dream house. I wish i own a condo apartment, i wants to share it with my mummy , auntie and maybe a pair of puppies.I want my living room to have a LCD TV, glass cupboard to place my photo or collection, some plants, carpet, coffee table and L Shape sofa .
Study room, it will become my hobbies room let me do my crafts, it will have an unit of air-con, a 5 ft study table i can work on that, a computer table with my flat screen monitor and CPU, a unit of laptop so i can carry around to my work. Two rooms, one for mummy and auntie as auntie are not use to sleeping alone so mummy will be the one accompany her. ROFL... Another for guest room which my guest come overnight they have place to sleep. =.= My room finally, a king size bed with purple bedsheet, wall painted pink with maybe rose picture on it . Doesn't it look like a drawing if you lay in your bed and see, a tv set, a lamp put beside my bed, a slide cupboards for all my clothes and my rooms must come together with toilet and bathroom inside there must be a bathtub and all bubble bath shampoo and body bath. In my room there should have a balcony with a small set of coffee table and two chairs as i love to see the stars during the night or i can feel the breeze if i am trouble.

Doesn,t it all sound like a beautiful dreams ? Hope i can acheive one day if so it will be DREAMS COME TRUE !

ALL ABOVE BELONGS TO JOYCE'S DREAMS

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